i'm having a bad week. first, the heat is'nt working. then the hot water heater is leaking.next, the washer machine is not working. finally, i had a bad day at work. all i want to do is hear my man's voice and talk to him. yet, i don't want to complain about everything. he can't do nothing right now,so why mention it. the reason to mention it is 'cause he is my best friend and it takes him away from his troubles. only,'cause he knows i'll take care of everything,one way or another. just another day. it's just hard not being able to confide in him.

i love him so much. this has been a hard week for me. no particular reason; just hard. i have this 3 foot bunny that he gave me. he's been his replacement since he's been away serving his country. when i make the bed in the morn. i put him on his side; he's already there, make the bed and put the covers up to his chin. when i come home i feel like he's there; not really; but i convince myself that way. i'm so worried about him and miss him too much. i don't know what to do with myself. i can't sleep at night. i get 'bout 2-3 hours sleep;if i'm lucky. i'm a strong woman;always been;i never realized that i could be weak. i'm still strong, i have to be for my man,but i'm crying everynight. sometimes i don't even want to get out of bed, but of course i do. i have to stay strong for myself and him. so i cry,uncontrolable, then i get myself together for tom.